D & C Schedueled

Aug. 21st, 2006 06:20 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

I met with the Ob today. He's in the same practice as my old one, but I like him a lot better. (I am slightly less impressed with his nurse, though - the old one was great).

We talked over my options, and I have schedueled a D/C for Wednesday. We didn't really bother redoing my tests, once he explained my ultrasound results. There was no heartbeat, and only about a weeks worth of growth since the last ultrasound, which was a month ago. It's... *shrugs*

I've come to accept it, and chose the d/c this time, instead of waiting on mother nature as I did last time. Last time, it only took like a week or two for me to miscarry and then a little over a week of heavy bleeding. This time it has already been a month, and I am only spotting. Also, I don't know how to describe the feeling of walking around with your child inside of you, knowing that it is not growing or thriving, but is, in fact, dead. It's a tough burden, and I am ready for this to be over.

Apparently, I have some health issues to resolve, and the dr is adament about me being on birth control for a while. He thinks there is a problem with my blood sugar control and my blood pressure was slightly high on Saturday, which I had attributed to stress, and even higher today. He is concerned.

I am still thinking over what to do next, but right now, my plan is to get healthy and employed. Maybe a baby just isn't in the cards.

Morning (all-day) sickness sucks!

Aug. 15th, 2006 11:30 am
lyssac: (pregnancy)

I hate it, hate it, hate it.

Ok, so I have been unwilling to admit that I have morning sickness, because, really it has been pretty mild to date. I have periods (ok almost constant) of nausea, and tons of food adversions, but nothing too overwhelming. I have only thrown up a few times, and then only small amounts.

That changed yesterday. It started out as heartburn in the mid-afternoon, which I blamed on a spicy piece of chicken that I had for breakfast. I took some tums, and was ok for a little while. However, as the day progressed, so did the heartburn, and with it, the nausea. My stomach was one completely acidy mess. Finally, I lost. I ran for the bathroom, and threw up for like ten or fifteen continuous minutes, but all it seemed to be was this acidy stuff, that burned my throat and was not dissimiliar to dry heaves, with a tiny bit of orange juice and water mixed in. (Sorry if that's too graphic.)

Despite the fact that I haven't thrown up since then, the feeling as never really gone away, even now. A couple of times, I even went and sat on the floor in frront of the toilet, just in case, because it felt like I would vomit. Worse than the nausea, is this burning sensation that really hurts, and nothing seems to touch, not tums, not pepto-bismal, not eating, and that is what is making me nauseaus, so traditional remedies are out. ugh.

I thought this was supposed to start getting better about now, not worse....

::pouts:: I don't feel good.

10 Weeks ( +1 day)

Aug. 13th, 2006 01:45 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

Well, I guess the pain the other day was a good thing. The consensus was that it was probably round ligament pain, ie. my uterus growing and stretching. I qam inclined to believe it, since the pain stopped the next day, mostly, and that night I noticed a change in my "bump."

A couple of weeks ago, I mentioned that if I pushed on my abdomen, just above me pubic bone, that it felt hard. Well, now I can feel that same hardness from the side - a little bulge about the width of my fist and sticking out about half an inch or so. I am taking it as a good sign. If I am growing, then as far as I can tell, so is the baby. So yeah - me.

As I mentioned in my last post, this is the farthest along that I have been in any of my pregnancies, including the time that I waited to miscarry in 2004. I am more than one-quarter of the way through my pregnancy. March seems both so close and so far away, with less than seven months to go until my due date.

Speaking of growing, I forgot to mention in my post last week, but I had to start wearing maternity/nursing bras again. I had one from my last pregnancy, and went and bought another at Wal-Mart (the biggest size they had [42DD]... ugh). However, the strangest thing happened; I went to Deal$ (a Dollar Tree kind of store) and they had nursing bras there, of all things - and get this - the only size they had was mine (my non-pregnancy size, 40D). I bought three of them ($1 each) and they are more comfortable (and more flexible) than the one I bought at Wal-Mart for quite a bit more. On top of that, they are the adjustable kind (D-DD-F), and the band is also more adjustable (I have it on the smallest hooks right now) so I will still be able to wear this for quitre some time, even if I get huge when my milk eventually comes in. Talk about a major deal - and made just for me :)

So big boobs, a growing belly, and a still pregnant me... I am continuously in awe of the fact that there is another person growing inside of me - not just a son or a daughter, but a whole other person... growing... inside... of me. It is absolutely mind-boggling.

The Most Pregnant Ever...

Aug. 10th, 2006 12:07 am
lyssac: (pregnancy)

Today, I will be 9weeks 5 days, and that's the longest I've ever been pregnant, though I still worry about the possibility of miscarriage. This is a bit of a milestone though, and one I have been waiting for. Today also marks 7 months exactly until my due date.

However, all day yesterday (Wednesday), I hurt - down in my lower abdomen and cervix. It's a really achy, burning kind of muscle pain, and my cervix really is sore, but it's generally sensitive. It's pretty painful, especially if I sit up for a while. I am trying to take it easy, but it's really uncomfortable.

It's not a severe/sharp pain, but more like really bad menstrual cramp type of pain, with a slight burn in the muscles, and not that long ago, it started spreading all the way up to my navel. I asked some of my friends about it on the board I hang out at and the general consensus is that it maybe a growth spurt kind of thing - the round ligaments growing and stretching with the baby. I just know that it's very uncomfortable, and I want to stop worrying about this baby.

I also feel icky with nausea and heartburn.... I want to feel better - I've got to clean my house, it's getting filthy. Though, hey, it should go without saying, that I will put up with this for 7 more months, if it means a healthy baby in the end... excuse me while I go take some more tums.

9 Weeks

Aug. 5th, 2006 12:18 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

I feel icky - not sick, so much, though I am, kind of. My sugar's have been in the low-normal range. I had to have the waitress bring me some orange juice last night at Barnhill's because I had waited to eat, and was shaking really bad, though my sugar was only in the low eighties, I start having hypoglycemic symptoms when it is.

My blood sugars have all been well, recently, but food is an issue. I am being extremely picky. Mealtimes are hell. I don't want anything, or we don't have a huge selection in the house... Salads with oil and vinegar dressing, and soups. If I wasn't pregnant, it would be a great diet. Right now, it is just a chore. I am either starving or stuffed. I hate food - hate it, hate it, hate it.

Ooh, I also like goldfish (the crackers) I bought two bags a few weeks ago - one of pretzels and one of whole grain cheddar, and they make good snacks here and there. I'm not overdoing it - I still have some of both.

I guess this post is mostly about food. I don't really have much to talk about. I'm pregnant, but it's pretty early, and who knows what's going on in there, since I am not vomiting on a regular basis or anything. *shrug*

I am working on my baby quilt though. It's a cross-stitch pattern with teddy bears and moons, with "I see the moon. The moon sees me. God Bless the moon. God Bless me." I really like it, and it's coming along.

I also have a crochet baby blanket around here somewhere that I should be working on. It's really funny; my husband teases me because this thing is huge. Forget a baby, this will cover a twin size bed when I am done. lol. I may start a different one, but I am determined to finish this one.

I need more crafts, interesting things to do, and puzzle books. I love logic problems. I've gone through three books of puzzles since I got pregnant.

I also got my registries mostly straightened out. I know it's early, but I like to plan for things. I also have to figure out how much money we are going to need for stuff. It is highly, highly unlikely that I will have a shower or anything, so they are mostly for my benefit anyway. I have three of them - Wal-Mart, Target, and Babies R Us. Maybe that's excessive, but there isn't too much on each one, and I like to shop around. Besides, I figured if anyone did want to buy anything, they could choose whichever was more convenient for them (or my amazon wishlist, to keep me occupied until the baby comes).

The end for now.... *yawn* (still so tired, too.)

8 Weeks

Jul. 29th, 2006 04:25 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

Well, this week was largely uneventful, though I did have some symptoms. I am exhausted and having trouble with insomnia again. I have also taken to taking an antacid each night before bed, because my heartburn has started to recur. (Ow, Ow, Ow - and two right now.... that hurts.)

I also had some sort of stomach bug this week. Let's just say that neither end of my gastro-intestinal track was happy and leave it at that. I have also sworn off of greasy/fried foods.... uuggh. My current favorite meal is the Simply Chicken from IHOP. It's a low-carb, low-fat, low-calorie meal consisting of (steamed?) broccoli, a pan-fried/grilled boneless skinless chicken breast, and a tossed salad with oil and vinegar dressing.... yummy. I bought salad fixings and vinegar last night at Wal-Mart.

I am on a definite "fresh" food kick - though I did ask for old-fashioned, orange powder, mac n cheese today.... it wasn't too bad (too much butter - not liking greasy, as I said) and then there was the aforementioned heart burn that almost made me regret it.

I also had what Leland is calling my first official craving this week. I made him take me to Sonic for a Creamslush (a soft-serve/icee combination that was lovely). I think I have had more food aversions than actual cravings. My grandmother used to tease me that I ate so weird that if I ever got pregnant that I might eat "normal." Leland says she is right. The biggest loss - spicy foods. Normally, I love them; right now, can't stand the idea. Weird.

My pelvic area still hurts from time to time, and I am looking forward to the second trimester when the baby moves up a bit. I have found is that at least a small part of my problem is that I sit on my tailbone, with my pelvis tucked under, and there just isn't much room in there. I have been trying to lay down/stretch out when the pain gets too bad, but it is easing off. I was looking back over my livejournal yesterday, and I noticed that I had the same kind of pain last time, around this point, so maybe it is just normal for me and pregnancy.

That's it for now. Kind of a long post considering I didn't think I had anything to add. I do think I am reconciling myself to being pregnant, and I hope that I don't have cause to regret it.

My trip to the ER...

Jul. 22nd, 2006 11:21 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

Well, last week it was spotting (twice), this week it was pain - and this time, bad enough to prompt my husband into bullying me into going to the ER.

I've had some pain on and off, throughout, as I have chronic pelvic pain from my PCOS, but last night, my lower back started to hurt, and this afternoon, there were really sharp pains in/near my left ovary. We were worried about a possible ectopic, or large cyst.

According to the dr, I have a healthy intrauterine pregnancy, and most likely a UTI, which is treatable.

The baby (fetal pole) was a bit small, measuring about a week behind my dates (6w0d +/-3d) - even though I am pretty sure about the date of conception, and the heartrate was 106, which I am not too crazy about (my last pregnancy had a small sac and a 109 heartrate), but it is early, and everything looks kind of reassuring at this point, which does help me feel a little better.

Hopefully, everything will continue on from here. I'll do my weekly progress post tomorrow.


Jul. 21st, 2006 04:43 pm
lyssac: (baby)

Not much going on here. I'll do a more comprehensive update tomorrow, but basically, I don't really feel pregnant right now. It's this strange limbo in the first trimester. The time is crawling by; I don't really have any symptoms that couldn't be easily explained away.

So, I found this cute little countdown graphic, to help me keep track of the time until the baby is due... except LJ doesn't like the html code, so you'll have to go here to see it.

Rock Hard Abs... lol

Jul. 16th, 2006 11:19 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

I noticed today, after I was cleaning the fridge, that my belly was rock hard, just above my pubic bone. I guess that's the top of my uterus. I can't feel it as much when I am laying down, but there is no mistaking it when I am standing. I even had Leland feel it.

My shorts/pants started to get a little snug earlier this week. It's not weight gain, as I said, I've only gained just over half a pound. Since I was a size 16 or so pre-pregnancy, I though that it would take me longer to notice any difference for the "padding."

Hopefully, it's a sign that everything is going as it should and the rugrat is healthy and snug in his/her home for the next 7 and a half months.

6 Weeks

Jul. 15th, 2006 06:36 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

This was an up and down week. Leland got hurt on Monday, I spotted a little on Tuesday and more on Friday. I also had some pain in/near my left ovary on Friday. However, I would say that I am doing ok overall.

It's still early and the last week has seemed to take forever, but at the same time, I am almost half way through my first trimester. I am sure that it will seem to fly by later, when the baby is due, or when he/she is here, but right now, March seems so very far away.

Health Status:
My Hemoglobin was 13.1, so that means I am not anemic. My prenatal vitamins seem to be doing their job.

My current weight: 219.2 lbs. (5' 7")
Total Weight Gain to Date: .6 lbs

Not a good day...

Jul. 11th, 2006 08:02 pm
lyssac: (journal)

I thought yesterday was a bad day. Leland and I ended up spending eight and a half hours in the emergency room because he hurt his back somehow. He lost his assignment at Staffmark because of it. He is out of work again, but hopefully, he will be able to get another assignment next week.

However, when I woke up today, I noticed that I was spotting a little. It just ruined my day.

5 days... that's how long it's been since I found out I was pregnant. I was so sure that maybe this time things would work out, and I would finally have my baby. I'm not a happy woman right now.

I know things aren't necessarily over, yet, but this is the same thing that I went through last time. Weeks of spotting and cramping and waiting for the inevitible.

Damn it...

A nice night out...

Jul. 9th, 2006 09:00 pm
lyssac: (journal)

We went over to Mike and Monique's and grilled tonight. I had a really nice time, and we watched a movie and hung out. We brought a cake from Wal-mart that we had Congrats! written in pink and blue letters, and we told them that I was pregnant. We are still giddy about our news.

I also took my hamster up to Petco to be adopted. It's too much for me to clean the cage and care for it now. The smell was mking me sick.

Speaking of smells, today when we walked into Mike and Moniques the place smelled like boiled eggs, and I had to turn around and walk back out. They had boiled eggs for the salad and the smell was overwhelming, it made me nausous. If morning sickness is a sign of a healthy pregnancy, I guess I am off to a good start.

I also bought some progesterone cream to try since I can't go to the doctor yet, and can't afford the suppositories this time around. I hope that it will help to keep me from miscarrying again. I don't think I will though. It just feels right this time. Leland keeps saying third time is a charm. I hope so.

5 Weeks

Jul. 8th, 2006 10:44 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

Today, I passed the five week mark, there are no real symptoms yet, but I feel exhausted. I also get some heartburn, if my stomach is empty for two long, and some occasional nausea that could be stress.

I am trying to quit smoking, which is harder this time around than any other time. I had one today, but hope to quickly change that to none at all.

I added a couple of new pics to my website, one each of me and my husband. I'm not crazy about how I look, but it's there.

2 years later...

Jul. 7th, 2006 08:27 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Ok, not the best way to welcome my child into the world, but Holy Shit!

ok, swearing over, I think. Not so long ago, I posted a little rant, about pregnancy in fan fiction. Well, I included some pertinant facts about how I was infertile, have had multiple miscarriages, and unsuccessful fertility treatments.

Well, in March, my doctor put me on birth conttrol pills because I hadn't menstruated in over three months, and they were worried about endometriosis. My migraines and pelvic pain were getting really bad, etc.

I casually mentioned that I was one of those weird ones who happened to ovulate the first month off of birth control pills. (Most women don't for several months, even if they are getting their period, and I just don't hardly ever.)

Well, a short while ago, I had to reorder my 3 month supply from the VA and various forces caused it to be late. I was planning on starting them the Sunday after we received them. That Saturday we were at a friends house and I noticed some of the TMI signs that my body might actually be fertile. I mentioned it to my husband, so we took a chance, and I didn't start the pills.

Today, I got up and took a test... seconds later, I was waking my husband up and pointing to the stick.... "It hasn't been the full time yet, and that is NOT my imagination!"

The test was positive. I'm pregnant. OMG! No telling if this one will actually stick, but apparently miracles do happen.

I'm pregnant.

Excuse me while I go hyperventilate.

The test was positive. I'm pregnant, and I had it confirmed by the doctor. OMG! No telling if this one will actually stick, but apparently miracles do happen, and this little miracle is due 10 Mar 2007.

It's Over...

Mar. 28th, 2004 01:02 am
lyssac: (pregnancy)

It's finally over. I lost my baby tonight.

There has been a lot of pain, physically and emotionally. I've been cramping and such the last few days, and probably will be for a few more.

I kind of knew what to expect because I have been through this before (2 previous early miscarriages), but this is the first time things had gone this far, or that I was being seen by a doctor, and then there was the u/s...

It was so hard, having seen and heard my baby's heartbeat and then to have been told he was gone, and yet waiting and waiting for it to be over.

Now, it is and there is some peace - a lot of sadness - but a little peace, too.

Exercise While Pregnant

Mar. 18th, 2004 03:26 pm
lyssac: (pregnancy)

The topic of exercise came up on one of my discussion boards today, and I figured I'd share my answer here, since it talks about my health.

I have actually been feeling better and getting more exercise since I have been pregnant. I have more fatigue, especially in the late afternoons and evenings, but I also have much more drive to do things.

I suffer from chronic migraines, but they have eased off, and I have barely had a few bad headaches since I have been pregnant.

I have always done some yoga.... (I used to do it with my paternal grandmother, when I was young) and picked it up again a few years ago with a friend who was pregnant at the time. I don't do the aerobic kind - mostly stretching, flexibility, and breathing. It is very refreshing.

I have been walking a lot more. I actually feel a lot better, if I can get out and walk and move around, but I am having to take it easy since the doctor put me on pelvic rest. I have stopped most of my walking. (I have chronic pelvic pain related to PCOS, and have been hurting/cramping since I got pregnant.... increasing blood flow to the area seemed to help.)

I am really hoping to get the all clear at my u/s next week and am going to discuss exercise with my dr. I am taking things as slow and easy as I can, but I am not one to sit still, and I feel better when I am moving.

Quick Update

Mar. 18th, 2004 02:10 pm
lyssac: (journal)

Not much going on here - still doing my spring cleaning. I actually feel like I am starting to accomplish stuff. I am waiting for Tuesday, for my ultrasound and the hopefully good news about the baby.

Spotting Again...

Mar. 15th, 2004 09:21 pm
lyssac: (journal)

I was going to write this weekend about the dinner we went to Saturday, but didn't get a chance. Saturday night was my husband's employer's yearly company banquet thing. There were lots of door prizes, but we didn't win one this year. We did have some pictures taken that I will post here in about three weeks, when we get them back.

I was happy and starting to feel more confident about the baby, but I was running a fever yesterday and tonight I started spotting again. I am trying to take things carefully, but I don't know what else to do...

There is some good news... both of my blood sugars today were below 100!

As soon as my pork roast finishes cooking, I am going to eat dinner and go to bed.