Too Late
Oct. 26th, 2005 09:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lyssacMy grandmother called today. She wanted to let me know that she had just found out that my mother died. They are not sure what happened. She just turned 52, I think, earlier this month. She went to the ER over the weekend, because she was sick. They gave her some meds and sent her home. She went to bed, and asked her husband for a drink. A while later, he went to sleep. When he woke up, she was gone.
I am not sure how I feel about this. I might make the trip to Oklahoma, to go to the funeral, but we weren't very close. We hardly knew each other at all. She has been trying for years to get in touch, sending me cards, every few months, but I never wrote back. I was going to a few months ago, when she wrote to tell me that my younger brother had just had a child, but I never did - and now it's too late.
I don't know - I feel bad, sad, but so much of our relationship was ambiguous that her death has left it that way permanantly.
I am not sure how I feel about this. I might make the trip to Oklahoma, to go to the funeral, but we weren't very close. We hardly knew each other at all. She has been trying for years to get in touch, sending me cards, every few months, but I never wrote back. I was going to a few months ago, when she wrote to tell me that my younger brother had just had a child, but I never did - and now it's too late.
I don't know - I feel bad, sad, but so much of our relationship was ambiguous that her death has left it that way permanantly.
