Holy F*ck!!!!!!

Feb. 19th, 2005 04:53 pm
lyssac: House giving Cuddy shot (ttc)
[personal profile] lyssac

ok, excuse the profanity, but that is my state of mind right now....

I might be pregnant. I'm not ready to say that I am for sure, so I'm not posting this with my fingers crossed. I am so shocked.


I took the clomid this cycle - several weeks ago, but the cycle failed. My 21 day progesterone was 0.7.

My temp went up on CD23, but my temps from CD23-CD28 aren't completely accurate, as I was experiencing insomnia and weird sleep cycles. However, they did stay up, so I definately O'd between CD22 and CD29. We BD on CD 19, 21 and 27.

I wasn't really counting on anything this month, between the failed treatment and us slacking off BD in the later part of the month.

However, since my temps did go up, I was going to test Monday (aprox 10-15 dpo) and then a couple of days later, until either BFP or AF.

Well, I tested this AM with a dollar tree test, because I had 5 of them. It was negative, but I left it on the counter.... (bad lyssa!)

I went to the bathroom, and was looking at the test in preparation for throwing it away, and there is a 2nd line. It's really faint, but I made DH lokk to see if I was imagining it, and he saw it too!

Ok, I know this was way outside the control time, however, I also don't know how many dpo I am for sure, and it wasn't FMU (I went back to bed for 1.5 hours after going the first time).

I don't really have any symptoms - (though I did have this weird globby clear and white CM on CD24, nothing since). Oh and I had creamy CM again today and my CP felt high and soft but closed, which can signal AF.

I don't know what it means, I am going to have to wait and test again on Monday. I am so scared both of "failing" again by getting another BFN, or by getting a BFP and losing it again.

OMG, I might be pregnant.

I know that it's not likely, but this is the f#cking rollercoaster of infertility. Somebody, please stop the ride, I want to get off.

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