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Still waiting...
Oct. 26th, 2004 02:05 amI feel like my life is on hold, held hostage by my fertility. I am in some sort of weird limbo waiting to find out if my period will come or not. Everything seems to be all about whether or not I am pregnant right now, and I can't get it out of my mind. Ididn't waste any money on HPT on Monday - but mostly because I am terrified of getting another Big Fat Negative.
This is so not healthy.... you know, I would almost be ok with not being pregnant, if I knew for sure, ie. my period would come and I would move on to a new cycle, and not be in this limbo.
Symptom update: 1)I was so not hungry today. If increased appetite is a sign, I'm all of the way at the other end.
2)Lelend put on a horror movie while we ate dinner, and I got so nauseous. I still feel sick. Normally, nothing phases me. If I'm not pregnant, I have some sort of flu.
This is so not healthy.... you know, I would almost be ok with not being pregnant, if I knew for sure, ie. my period would come and I would move on to a new cycle, and not be in this limbo.
Symptom update: 1)I was so not hungry today. If increased appetite is a sign, I'm all of the way at the other end.
2)Lelend put on a horror movie while we ate dinner, and I got so nauseous. I still feel sick. Normally, nothing phases me. If I'm not pregnant, I have some sort of flu.
