Oct. 25th, 2004

Going crazy 10 dpo

Oct. 25th, 2004 01:37 am
lyssac: House giving Cuddy shot (ttc)

My body is playing tricks on me. It keeps trying to convince me that I'm pregnant, even though the HPT's I keep taking keep indicating that isn't so. I know part of that is because today is really emotional for me. Today was my due date for my last pregnancy. I've been having problems with that for about the last 6 weeks.

A friend of mine, who used to be close to us, called DH when I was laying in bed during my miscarriage. She had wanted to tell him that she was pregnant, and due about the same time I had been. She gave birth today, on my due date.

At 5 dpo I began to think I might be pregnant (though I know it is impossible to have symptoms that early). I was crampy, twingey, headachey. This was probably because it's been 4 long cycles since I last ovulated on my own. Around day 8, I really started to feel weird. I had some nausea, especially at smells (which could have been low blood sugar, except it recurred at the same time on 9 dpo, and 10 dpo). By the evening on 10 dpo, smells were really exacerbating my nausea. My breasts, or more specifically my nipples, became sore at 8 dpo, though it wasn't extreme and was mostly on my right side. They didn't really hurt, so much as were super sensitive/tight/sore feeling. On 10 dpo, they were a constant irritant and both sides were sore. DH even commented that this doesn't normally occur with my period (it did occur last time I was pregnant). I also noticed that my nipples were darker (they are usually really pale). I am still crampy, twingey in my lower abdomen (worse when I lift things). I have been waking up every 3-4 hours full to bursting, needing to urinate. I am diabetic, but I have pretty good control of my sugar, and this hasn't really been an issue prior to the last few days. As of today, the only other two cycles, that I have ovulated since my miscarriage, both had LP's shorter than this one.

Despite all of these classic pregnancy symptoms, as of the morning of 10 dpo, my pregnancy test was negative. I pretty much expect it to be. I know intellectually that it is too early and that I am not likely to be pregnant, anyway. (I do have problems getting concentrated urine because of my diabetes, but I don't think that's the issue.)

I didn't have symptoms last time I was pregnant. I didn't even test until cd 42 or so. I was absolutely sure that AF was coming any moment. I even told my dr that during my yearly physical (she believed me). So why am I feeling like this? Why is my body acting like this?

I feel pregnant - but I know that if it is too early to test positive, it should be too early to have symptoms. I can tell my self that over and over, but my breasts still hurt, and I'm still nauseous.

I can't take this today, of all days. I don't know what to do.

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Oct. 25th, 2004 05:46 am
lyssac: (baby)

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Dr appt for blood test....

Oct. 25th, 2004 10:29 am
lyssac: House giving Cuddy shot (ttc)

How are you all doing today.... I am continuing my descent into madness.

I called my dr today and the nurse told me that the dr doesn't do blood tests until cd 35 (which I guess would be 1 week past AF due for most people). That kind of sucks.... He did tell me a few weeks ago to come in for one if I went past 35 days, but that was when I thought I wouldn't O.

In some ways he is so old fashioned, in some ways he is really supportive. I guess I just want my own way on everything. I'm 11 dpo and holding, though I managed not to take a HPT today. (Personally, those things are almost more addictive than a cigarette, when you have reason to believe it might possibly tell you what you want to hear. BTW I quit smoking a few weeks ago)

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