It goes on...

Oct. 4th, 2009 05:33 pm
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I find myself living in my head again. Everyday, I think of so much that I would like to share, or an anectdote that I find amusing, and yet, I just can't find the time to sit down and type out those few simple words.

I am having a lovely time in my bloodbanking rotation. I have finished my first week and have just over 3 more to go. Everyone tells me how bored I would be doing my job, because it's much the same from day to day, but I am having a ball in blood bank, even when I am sometimes struggling with the concepts.

It's much like a big logic problem, and I always want to figure out the solution and get it right, but I can't always do so. Sometimes, it's because I am learning the technique and occasionally make a mistake (kind of like real logic problems), other times, it's because I have a faulty sample (as a student, I mostly work on old patient samples, or ones that have been 'doctored' to give specific results, but don't always).

Sometimes, it is just beyond the scope of my job/ability - if the patient has three or more interacting antibodies, or agglutinates that are interfering with the screen, most of the time that's not going to be handled in house due to time and money contraints, but sent out to the American Red Cross or similar facility that can do the extensive testing, but also pre-screen the necessary units of blood in volumes that we are unable to do so.

I think that's the big thing that my preceptor has been trying to get through my head - learn the techniques, don't worry so much about the answers. Identify what you can, and understand what's going on, if you can't. I'm an answer type person and a perfectionist though. I am working on it.

I also finally got the Apartment Life expansion pack of SIMS2 installed on my computer, and have been doing some downloading and minor modding/adjusting of my game down, but despite my keen interest, haven't managed to actually play the game yet. I'd say that's pretty much par for the course for my life right now. I am so busy doing stuff that I am not finding time to get anything done.

I am constantly exhausted and feel like my to-do list is going to eat me alive. ((Despite actually working on my homework ahead of time this week, I forgot to turn in in on Thursday, threatening to sink my B in that class.)) I get up at "oh, my god, it's early" to be at the hospital by 5:30 or so in the morning, work until just after 2, and then walk home (about 25 minutes) check my email and relax for a few minutes and then am exhausted by 4pm or so. Sometimes, I take a nap, then work on my homework, until it is time to fall into bed for a few hours before it is time to do it all again.

I've gotten a little writing done in between things, and plan on making some more earrings tonight to take in with me tomorrow, as a couple of the girls bought some a few weeks ago, and I could really use the money.

I got my bill for this semester the other day. It's about $3500 due before graduation in December, and considering that we are about $1000 behind on our rent, I don't see that happening. *sigh* I have that familiar drowning feeling again, and that doesn't even coulnt what it will be like in a few weeks, when I have to go out of town for my last rotation, adding an hour or more commute in the am's and having to wait until after DH gets off at almost 9pm, before he can even come get me... I'll be lucky if I am home by 11pm each night, and gone by 4:30 the next morning. One day at a time, though. That's what I keep telling myself

How are you guys doing, I've missed a lot on lj, some days I don't even manage to log in. I am thinking of you, though.

March 2010

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